differant's Diaryland Diary

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I want to scream but i'm too busy...

Shoot me now.
How am i so busy. How do my grades still suck.

You know what i didn't use a question mark?
because i know. i just want to get my 3.0 and move the fuck on.

I'm stressing. stressing. stressing. AH!
ok, that felt better.

I think i give up on relationships.
I'm self destructive, it's true.

But i'm happy to have my roomie back.
And happy with who my roomie will be next year.

I should start making a positive thing list, cuz the negative are really looming over me.

7:26 p.m. - Tuesday, Mar. 27, 2007

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I think i might like lonely nights...

Ok.

So i might live in the sorority house next year. That's ok..really.

Cheerleading ends in five days. I can do five days...or is it six. Whatever.

Ok.

tonight, i'll look over leadership, west african art museum stuff, i just need to know what needs to get done...i can't go on like this.

"I left another good man tonight, i wonder if he'll miss me"

12:10 a.m. - Tuesday, Mar. 20, 2007

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Where did i go wrong?

My. grades. suck.
I suck.

blah.

it's ok...i have a half a semester left to fix this mess. I can do this...really.

yep.

shit. shit shit shit. I should be studying right now...but what, for what, where the hell do i even start.

I can do this. yep. yes i can. shit....

2:27 p.m. - Monday, Mar. 19, 2007

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Crazy. like Gnarls, Britney and Patsy.

I think I'm just mentally healthier with a blog.

an outlet.
somewhere to make no sense at all.
except to myself.

what am i doing with my life right now? I'm in college.
i'm happy. right?
I'm working towards a major that I want. right?
I'm involved with people who want the best for me. right?

well shit.

I need to do my chinese. I need to figure out sorority stuff, get to the bank, call some people...

winter break is too short and too long.

I'm reading a great book right now, where is it?

But really. It seems long enough that I promised to see *everyone*, but it's short enough that I can't. It's long enough that I could work, but too short to unpack all the the clean laundry I now have.

and it's long enough for me to realize that i really don't want to come home for summer.

it has nothing to do with the people...in fact, I'm not sure I would want to be at marietta this summer either.

maybe i should figure out what i want first.

I want to take a nap.
and Scrubs is very quotable.
=)

6:35 p.m. - Wednesday, Mar. 14, 2007

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